it lingers as i walk

the fear

coarses through my veins

i see things

that no one else acknowledges

i feel it

the memories of inflicted pain

when it comes

no one will know

it will hurt

but i will keep moving on

it whispers

telling me that i am his

i'll never escape

these chemicals keep me sane

i will tremble

my stomach will turn in knots

barely standing

i will carry this burden...this gift

until the next time...