Here I Go Again

I don’t know what to say
I just don’t know anymore
My thoughts are running in my head
I don’t know what to do
Everything seems to hurt so much
And the blade is my only friend
It sinks into my flesh
And I feel so much better
It takes my pain
And kisses it away
So here I go again,
I know that I shouldn’t
But how can I stop
When it feels so good
I relay on it
And its all I have left
So here I go again
Making little marks on my skin
And slowly the blood falls
And I know I've made a mistake
But yet here I go again
I’ve forgotten how to live
The blade touches my skin
And feels just right
So here it goes again
Drop after drop hits the ground
And its still not enough
The pain remains
Only gone when the blade sinks in
I want to stop
I really do
But life is just so hard
And so here I go again
Cutting for release
And for pleasure both
It feels just right
And I know this is the end
Maybe I’ll die this time
Maybe the end is near
I girl can hope cant she?
So here it goes again
I’m hurting again
And hoping to finally die
So I make another mark
And bleed some more
Yet the pain remains
And I live to hurt again
So here I go again
Hurting myself again
Maybe I’ll finally die
That’s what I'm hoping for
Its really my goal this time
I cant take much more
And yet I wont die
I’m too stubborn
And so I cut again and again
And the pain returns
So here I go
Bleeding again
All this
And yet no end
So I cut, burn
Anything to cause pain
And I'm giving up
I already have haven’t I?
The end is near
I pray for death
Maybe I’ll die
A girl can hope
Cant she?