8:25 am2/28/05

Anyone, you said.
I could have been someone else.
Well, thank you, at least I know I'm replaceable.

hurt you hurt me
well I'm sure I can be whole again but you
will always be half a person
half a couple
and you wish for nothing more

hold my hand you must be blind
you can forget every forfeited day with him
"Thursday. Sorry, not today. Friday."
but it never came
and all of the uncertainty that you felt was only proof of your total conversion
now you don't know life without him
absent his flighty presence,
you're broken.

let you let me in
I'll be the first to let you know it's not OK to ditch your friends

you think you see your future but it's empty
unfounded and based on a romance you constructed
I see our end, I wanted the least I could ask for
but you wouldn't, you didn't know how to
let another in

you keep your room sealed for him
white and clean and stained with missing him
plain and drained and who are you without him?
I hope, for your sake, that he even wants to come in.