Chapter twenty-six:

I had said goodbye to Olive, it was like things had happened so fast, I don’t even remember seeing her much. As I sat alone in the car with Art I couldn’t help but feel a little empty.

“Why does Jordan hate me?” I asked.

Art pretended like he was concentrating on driving, “why does anyone hate anyone?” he asked.

As we were driving I instantly knew, “Art why are we doing this?” I asked.

“Why are we doing what?”

“why are we together?” I clarified, “or wanting to be together?”

“Because we love each other,” Art said as if the answer was so obvious.

“Is that it?” I asked, “Is this all because we love each other? Or is it mere infatuation?”

Art came to a full stop on to the side of the road, “what are you saying?” Art asked.

“I’m saying how can I mean so much to you? How is it that you can ruin something just to make us be happy together? Why are you forcing us?”

Art gave a side way glance, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“JORDAN!” I cried. I could feel tears falling down my face, “You said something to him to make him hate me so I wouldn’t like him anymore.”

“I would never do that!” Art retaliated, “Now, I believe in you and I, Sadie, and I don’t care what stands in our way.”

“Or who!” I cried, “You tried to make me hate your best friend, you tried to make me hate my own friend! And for what? To make me love you more.”

Art put an arm around me, “Sadie, stop crying . . . please . . . stop crying . . . Sadie?”

I pushed his arm off of me, “You’re such a jerk!” I cried.

“Look I asked how to get a girl to not like you anymore and he told me to be a complete ass to her. And that’s what he did as a favour for letting him go after you. Please calm down . . .”

“so suddenly I’m a thing that you can go after and be mean to? I have feelings Art and if you don’t get that then you’ll never get me!” I pulled my hoodie over my head and sank inside closing my eyes and letting myself cry. I knew that I would have to let both Art and Jordan go but I couldn’t be with either of them if they were into mind games like this.

When I arose from my hoodie I was finally home, Art tried to speak to me but all I could say in return was, “It’s over Artemis,” I knew that right now it had to be over, we had to be over.

Alexia ran over to me, “How was your trip!?” She asked excitedly.

I sighed and let a tear fall, “let’s just say, from now on,” I stopped to sigh, “I’m flying solo.”

I went to my bedroom and sat down trying to think about everything that had happened, from me even trying out to be in the band to me being in the band. I even thought about how I tried to run away so many times.

Closing my eyes wouldn’t let the pain slip away. I had given up almost everything I had wanted and all because of something other people did to make me happy. I guess I should re-evaluate my life and think of new, better goals.

As days went by I had begun to realize that maybe Art was really infatuated with me. It didn’t take long for him and Nikki to finally hook up from what I saw at school. Jordan was still with his annoying girlfriend and Clark and Lexi were happier than ever. Except for all of that, things had gone back to normal.

As I sat watching Art and his group of friends laughing, talking and sometimes even playing guitar, I realized that I had made a difference in their lives, and that was something I really liked despite all my hopes going to hell.

I pulled out my notepad and wrote down ‘make a difference in many people’s lives’ as my first goal for the future. I caught Art staring at me when I stopped writing in the notepad. When I looked back he was staring away. I smiled at him knowing that he could see me.

When I stared at my notepad I chuckled to myself, I was so caring, what was the most selfish thing I had ever wanted? I scribbled down in big letters, TO BE A FUCKING ROCKSTAR.

The sun was shinning on me and despite the happiness and love all around me I knew that there were things that I had to deal with, like my mothers death, for example. I flipped through my notepad and saw the song I had written about her. I stood up and left the quad feeling satisfied, besides I still had that gig at the Moonshine tonight and I heard everyone will be there.

A/N: Sorry its taken So long… I’ve been busy with school and its so stressful. I finally have a break so I’m gonna try and wrap this up soon. also i dont have a sequel in the work at the moment although the idea of continueing with a character and her life with her first love/crush/boyfriend/kiss everything is really fun I just dont have time for it. say hello to High school Junior Popcorn! not as stressful as senior but getting there. I'm going to try and get this story out quickly so hold on! these last few chapters are wrapping everything up.

xoxox Popcorn