These voices inside of me,

Crying, getting louder, wailing.

Telling me what they want me to do.

I don't want what they want.

I don’t need what they need.

I just want to be me and sane.

Something is crawling,

Moving around and wiggling.

I can't stop them,

I feel so dirty and un-clean.

Like my non-existent holiness was erased.

Gone, forever gone.

I feel so alone, stripped of my being.

I don't....want to know what’s next.

Someone come hold me,

Someone come tell me it's alright!

Hold me tight and ease my fears,

Feel your shirt be soaked by tears. ( Mine )

I don’t want it to dominate, or

Take away who I am.

Strong, confident, and in your face.

I want to be me. Cant..?

Tell me why. Tell me why.

Can you tell me why?

I just want to…perish.

Tell me why. Tell me why

I just want to cry, and feel your embrace.

With this blade, erase my memories.

Take this blade, reveal my reddened hate.

I...just...want...them..to..go..away!

But they won’t

I won’t be complete.

( And I want is to be whole.)

I feel so dirty. So dirty. Oh so dirty.

Purify me. Clean me up.

Will you be my murder?

Will I be your suicide?

That light I never thought to desire.

The light I could never have.

Dirty, and disgusting. Repulsive.

Don’t you understand, my devil?

My dearest, loveliest devil?

My un-needed resurrection,

So leave me, dead.

Razor Blade kisses and liquefied sorrows.

And it was all in the name of you.

Because.....

You're all I have.( Had )

(And I love you.)