Death

Destruction

Deceit

Is she

Pulls my hair

Doesn't let go for another mile

…

She

Smiles only to see me cry

Her eyes stare at me and tell me to die

Laughs when I'm in pain

Even harder when it's caused by her

…

She

Smacks my face

Wanting to break my jaw

Punches my stomach

Just to see me fall

…

I do my best not to cry

Just so she won't strike

One more time

She speaks to me

Like I'm just fine

While she yells

I do my best not to cry

…

It's been an hour

My answer still not right

Its 1am

Past my bed time

…

No help to protect my sides

She hits me

Because I cried

…

I'm so hungry

I didn't eat

I made sure she was full

Before I got my bowl

It's been nine years since daddy died

I was only one at the time

…

Tears threaten my eyes

She kicks me one more time

My legs receive the pain

Here comes another bout

Of infinite rage

All because a year ago

I spilled my juice

It's no use

I cry anyway

…

Its 2am

She's says "Fine

I'm going to bed

Don't do it again!"

She leaves my room

I close my eyes

Wondering if

It's safe to cry

I hold my tears for

One more hour

…

The house is dark

She's asleep and in her room.

I close my eyes and begin to cry

Just one more time

I still stay quiet because she's near by

Now my pillow is soaking wet

…

My face is swollen

My eyes are red

And it starts all over again

In her room

I hear her scream

Screaming "NO!" loudly in her dream

She won't remember it when she wakes up

She doesn't stop for another two hours

…

Its 5am I get out of bed

My day starts all over again

I wake her up

Find her clothes

Pack her lunch

She's ready to go

I rush to my room

To hurry up

Get dressed

Forget my lunch

…

I hide the bruises

From last night

Hoping it would be the last fight

Maybe things will go right

I put on my mask and live out life

…

I come home

Take off the mask

I rush to the kitchen to make supper again

I clean the house

Do some homework

Waiting for her to come home

…

When she looks at me

I fear everything

I look up just one more time

And ask "please daddy not tonight"