Author’s Notes: Meh, something longish and not a song. Not truly...depressing, but it wont make you all happy inside. I wrote it ages ago, just have been slow posting it. I hope you like my latest crap!

Dreamland

Wandering a dark vast field, wandering it all alone
I’ve been used too many times
Been rejected and hurt—my heart is all but broken
Since I lost you so long ago

My clothes are worn, like my soul
The wind is stinging my eyes
I hug my thin coat closer
Look up at the cloudy sky

Lightning flashes in the world above me
Thunder rolls like waves across the sea
The world I know is torn apart
And the rain comes down far too fast—I slowly start to freeze

One cold breath passes through my lips
An icy cloud is the last thing I see in the night
Then I start to fall, but I can’t stop
Slowly, I close my eyes one last time

I feel a pair of arms wrap around me
Holding me in warm embrace
Someone who loves me is holding me close
With one thumb they stroke my face

I open my eyes again to find your face staring down at me
There’s love in your eyes, they shine so bright
You pull me to my feet so tenderly
And in this Dreamland we run free

The sky is all colors
Made of the purest light
My hand in yours, soft and warm
Squeezing it gently you lead me up to the highest hill

You pull me towards you, and we share a lover’s kiss
I lay my head on your shoulder
In your arms I feel nothing but safe
Safe, in this lover’s embrace

You gently slip something on my finger
It’s a golden ring
The weight feels so right there
I’m finally home at last....

My eyes start to close
I can still see the sky, so colorful
I listen to the steady rhythm of your heart
It’s one with mine

I hear your slow breathing
Your soft words of comfort
I feel the your heat, your warmth
It warms my frozen soul

I awaken in the morning
I slowly open my eyes
Soaked to the bone and freezing
Still in that field and still alive

The sky is cloudy, your face is gone
And at first I cry, because I’m still alone
You’re still away from my world
And I can’t hear you anymore

I look down at my fingers
They’re bleeding and dirty, true
They’ve been torn away from Dreamland
From my memory of you

But around my fourth finger
The one on my right hand
It’s still there, what you gave me
The golden wedding band

I close my eyes once more
I’m hoping to open them and once again see your face
It was you who held me through the night
Kept me warm in your embrace

I open my eyes, but everything is the same as before
And still the tears fall
How could you know how much I miss you
How much I ache to have you hold me again

I take a knife out of my sleeve
Perhaps to see you once more
I must end it all
After all, you wanted to see me....

...but I let the knife fall....

You held me through the night
You’d want me to go on
I know it won’t be easy
But I’ll find a way home

I drag myself to my feet
I put my knife away
For now I’ve got to go
I can do that another day

My shoes are worn through
My coat is thin and soaked
I’m bleeding and I’m dirty
But I’ll still carry on

I twist the golden ring around my finger
I’m still thinking of your eyes
As I walk it helps me not to think of the pain
In my body and inside my soul

There’s something distant on the horizon
What, only time will tell
I keep my eyes on it, and twist that ring again
And I keep heading forward, because I can’t go back

I’ll keep heading forward, because I can’t go back
And at night I’ll dream of you
While I twist this golden ring around my finger
At night I can go to Dreamland