I've gone off the deep end

Back to old habits

Habits that I shouldn't be going back to

I'm slowly washing away

Every bit of happiness gone

I don't know why

But I'm going back to how I was a year ago

Drinking

Drugs

Suicide

Poppin' sleeping pills during the day

I just want to go to sleep

And never wake up

Hoping to get some peace in my life

I wish everything and everyone

Would just fade away

Just disappear and never return

My life is falling apart

And there is nothing I can do to stop it

I have nothing to hold on to

No one to talk to

To help me get back under the control

I praised myself for

But that control is gone

Has been slowly slipping away to nothing

It's like it was never there to begin with

I'm alone once again

With no hand to hold

No shoulder to cry on

No arms to fall in to

Alone and broken

Just like before

When I thought I didn't belong here

But now I feel that way once again

And I can't stop feeling that way

Nothing good happens to people like me

People who belong in the dark instead of the light

People who aren't wanted in this world