I felt the ice melt down
my heart began to quiver.
My face lost it's frown.
What I felt was no shiver.
The chains began to rattle,
the lock started to melt,
had no control over the battle.
What was it that I felt?

Everything said it was wrong,
but I felt it wasn't so.
The feeling was so strong,
it made me fear though.
The chance of getting caught
living a life of hiding.
All my feelings are a knot,
it's a chance I'm riding.
Though I haven't yet decided
Wether I should take a chance.
This feeling isn't one-sided,
could it really be romance?

My mind is in doubt
but my heart makes no question.
It makes me want to shout:
"When can I end this repression?"
This feeling rather amusing,
this wasn't what I had planned.
It's almost kind of confusing,
and all you did was hold my hand.

By, Ana F.
Date: April 15, 2005
Time: 10:04pm

Well, I actually like this poem a lot. I haven’t written one like this in a while. It’s based on recent feelings. –sigh- how to explain? I’m bi, for those who didn’t know, and this girl who is my friend used to like me from the very beginning but I shut her out because I found her too annoying, too friendly (as in, she liked to hug everyone and just cuddly with everyone and Im the kind of person that whats mine is mine) and just, wasn’t sure if to trust her. But then I let us just be friends, she surprised me by changing, showing a side of her I didn’t know and waking up a side of me I didn’t know lived. Then slowly but eventually she started cuddling with me, I liked it, but I was afraid that people would say things, that we’d get in trouble and so on. Then today, we held hands and I mean really held hands. We were in the car and our hands were not just holding, but touching, exploring, it made me feel like I was burning… LOL Kind of made me feel like I was having sex with her hand. Anyway, this is my feelings about it. What pisses me off is that my love life is complicated as it is, this makes it worse, because girl on girl isn’t acceptable in our society or our families… So I just don’t know.. I don’t know..