The Intelligent Girl's Guide to Grabbing her Geek

Rated: T (teen, I suppose)

By: Nom D. Script

General: Don’t take. I love my work.

what you should never ever ever do

...Go out with a guy because he likes you. Please don't do that to yourself. It's not worth it. Truly. Let me recount.

I was a freshman, and that's the only excuse I can come up with. I was 14, going on 15, and there was this guy. He's my current, and boy, did I fall effin' hard for him. He was the reason I went to school in the morning. Just to spend time in the School Library, reading up on Spanish, getting "geometry help" from him. He was IT, ya know ya know?

(that's your cue to say "I know I know")
(...I'm waiting...)
(go ahead! say it! SAY IT! I WON'T WRITE UNTIL YOU SAY IT!)
(thanks)

ANYWAYS. He's uber shy. Very Shy. SO shy he would never have asked me out unless this OTHER guy, let's call him Griff, well anyways, Griff, being a buddy of mine (NOT) dared the current to ask me out.

...so he did. Ask me out I mean.

The result? I was happy as a clam at highwater. What the hell was I thinking? I had a boyfriend. that's what I was thinking. I was a bloody idiot, no questions asked. Happy as hell because a guy liked me. What a freak I was.

Then, after school? weeelll...I had actually talked with my ex before, for the first time, during school. Shocked the hell out of him. He didn't think I was only a freshman (he was a junior at the time...and an OLD junior at that. He was born in November, I think) And I do believe my philosophical thought (we were discussing how a circle could, or couldn't be, a square. It's an ongoing debate. I'm winning. I know a circle's not a square. He has issues) sort of...seduced him. After school? we continued. I astounded him, unconsciously. We talked on IM that night. I decided that, well, he liked me more than the current did. So I agreed to go out with him.

...yes, while I was supposedly going out the Current. Wow.

Anyways. I informed the Current that I thought his first asking-outage should not be forced, and should be on his own accord. He was just like "OK".

I enjoyed about four days with the ex before breaking the news with my parents, who well, being my parents, freaked. Ended up pulling the whole Romeo and Juliet thing with the ex.

...And then I realized what a loser he was. the Ex, I mean. He was. He was an UBER GEEK. to the WORST DEGREE.

...and to make matters worse, the Current actually asked me out, on his own accord. So I had to say no, right? RIGHT.

...and I never stopped liking the Current.

So what did I do? I fed the Ex some cock-and-bullshit story about how I didn't like lying to my parents. THEN, I seduced the Current. I am horrible.

The Ex? What happened to him? Well...he went suicidal. But he was suicidal before we went out, so I guess it was just him slipping back into his previous state. But ANYWAYS.

A couple of months later, we started talking again. I missed the philosophical conversations. Then, he made out with my neck in the senior lounge. The utter and complete loser.

He still likes me. According to my best friend (who is a guy, who went through VERY SIMILAR SITUATIONS) he will never stop...I mean, we were each other first kisses. And I suppose I'll always look back on those virginous kisses and think "Holy crap...that was hot" but really? Most of the time, I look back and cringe inwardly at the utter and complete stupid-osity of it all. WHY?! HE WAS SO DESPERATE. And then I came in...a girl that would take him, not leave him. A girl who would kiss him, and cuddle. Sent him over the moon...and then I walked away.

I am the reason he turned Emo.

...do you KNOW the burden on my soul for that?

:-P