How could I have done it?

Why must I do these things?

Push them all away,

Leave them dangling on a string….

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You know you must do it,

You know why you do them,

Deep inside your soul,

You know why you hurt them.

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No! I refuse to fall!

It’s wrong and I know it!

I’ll not let you make

Me a puppet to your will!

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You will listen to me!

I know what’s best for you!

If you do not “fall,”

I will bring you down! You know…

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I know that you will bring

Me down if I do not,

But is it worth

All I could lose if you’re wrong?

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Have I ever let you down?

Have I led you astray?

I’ve shown you a path,

And it’s always done you right.

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As much as I long to

Take your path, once again,

Something within me,

Tells me what I’m doing, is

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Wrong? How could that be?

What you’ve done has always

Brought you only good,

All it’s done is lead you down a

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Good path? That’s what you’ve been

Saying all this time and now

I am not so sure,

If I don’t, look at all I

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Could attain? There is naught,

For you if you go that way!

You must see that I

Have been teaching you, what you

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Really need, to survive,

I know, I see it now,

You have been the one,

That’s been keeping me alive

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All these years, now you see,

What you really need is me.

I will keep you safe,

From all the evil in this

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Bloody world, now I see,

The only way for me.

To push them away,

Keep me locked, hardened, inside….