As I stare at the setting sun and illuminated by the orange aura, I feel someone will come back... the sea is calling... someone will come back to me.

Someone...

It’s been 3 months since Josh and I parted our ways. Don’t ask me if I’m fully recovered now! of course not, I can still feel the pain... here at the sea we always hang out. staring at the sunset and counting seashells, we are always wishing at the blue sea... those crappy wishes that reminds me of those soap opera promises... funny butI never laugh.I always remember it was late afternoon, he is there hugging me tight and greeting me happy anniversary. We enjoyed the night and had a good time, but it was a sign of farewell..

The same day. the stars are shining brightly. Everything is still. I slept at his lap as he stares at the stars. I’m safe, I thought. Irealized thathe never ever told me that day the three words I’am waiting to hear. No I love yous, maybe in my dreams. The next day I woke up at my bed. I feel the urge to find him.. I saw a letter. I hate you. Three wordswritten inbold letters! I was so dumbfounded! I ran around my room crazily and went to the bathroom. I wished I never entered.

Now, Watching the sunset. I’am waiting for his hugs and kisses. Now I’m in theblue Calling... still at my mind relieving the day the poemhe left at the sink...

after you saw me,
please ran and go to the sea.
scream that Josh loves me
but then he left thee
tears now flowed to your eyes
upon reading the hate lies
Iam here because of love
come and free the dove
cut my rope that binds my neck
and hug me and never shed
sorry, iam weak, im sick
and soon will leave
i cant bear the pain
so i think this is my gain
fled now, kiss me tender
Because now is forever..

I found out that he is sick.A weird mental illness that will erase his memories forever. Yes. Forever.I just realized that he chose to die than to live without his memories of us. His fears. He fears to forget me. The love that we shared.I just don’t get it, does love forgets?

But now at this sunset, I can feel that he is coming. Now I can feel it more. The water in the sea is warm but I feel cold. Splendid. Dark. Bubbles are drifting away. Now I can feel his presence. I’m sinking... gray... I’ am closing my eyes... yes. The air is leaving me nowas well as the sadness I kept. I don’t know. He is holding me. It is very dark and yet I saw the light.