unable to connect

as words display in shades of red,
of green and blue on white,
i realize there's something wrong,
that something isn't right.
it seems as though when i attempt
to put my thoughts to ink
the very thing that once helped write
won't do it's thing, won't think.

three words appear in shades of grey
i start to understand
the process that i always used
is not at my command
my thoughts, emotions, and ideas
will not translate to words
to and fro, my mind does race,
my thoughts as flighty birds

mechanical, emotionless,
i take my life in stride
i don't respond just like i should,
though i've nothing to hide
for reason this or reason that,
it seems i can't reflect
when i write, i find myself
unable to connect.
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