a hand to hold

a shoulder to cry on

a reassuring face

someone to talk to

and share things with

someone to just be there for me

someone who knows me

who makes me feel

who knows when to talk to me

or just to hold my hand

If I could, I’d turn back time, if it meant seeing you again.

I feel I’ve lost in the game of love,

Everyone’s compared to you

No one compares to you

missing you terribly

knowing I’ll never see you again

and if I do, I’ll be helpless in my passionate grief

because I’m afraid you’ve forgotten

forgotten the moments

forgotten the laughter

forgotten me.

I’m helpless in my mind

all I see if you

all I want is you

all I need it you

and though at times

I can forget my pain

when I see others close

it all rushes back

I miss you

I need to see you

and when I do

I’ll talk to you

and laugh with you

but inside I’m in agony

because all I’ll be able to do

is talk and laugh with you

nothing more

but as I leave you

my heart with be screaming

and when you’re out of my sight

and I’m alone

I’ll cry

and wonder what I did wrong

because you’ve gone on

and I’m still alone

so maybe I’m pathetic

but pathetic I am

I’ve tried to forget you

honestly I have

but I haven’t cared for anyone like I’ve cared for you

I haven’t felt safe with anyone like I’ve felt safe with you

I haven’t wanted anyone like I’ve wanted you

I haven’t known anyone like I’ve known you

I certainly haven’t cried for anyone like I’ve cried for you

seeing you once, brings tears to my eyes

I can’t get over you

I’m missing you madly

drowning in this unrequited love that no one knows about

not even you.

So I’m doomed to be pathetic,

till the end of my days

and even if I find someone that is all that I want and more

know this:

I’ll never forget you

forever and always you’ll be

my first love

even if you never loved me back