Just for the Record, I hate how poems show up on this QuickEdit thing. >. ;

Heaven or Hell?

You make me smile, despite the tears.

You make me laugh, despite my fears.

You've turned my life upside down,

You've changed everything all around.

When I think of you, it's hard to tell

Whether I'm in heaven, or in hell.

You're so far from me, yet close in a way.

And everyday I'm without you is dull and gray.

Everytime I think of you, tears spring to my eyes,

From pain of not seeing you. From fear of lies.

You tell me not to worry, that you truly love me.

But I can't stop worrying, even to the "love" decree.

It hurts me thinking I can't trust you, but I know

It must hurt you more, but you don't let it show.

Now I feel you're drifting away from me, far away,

I know I can't stop it, not matter what I do or say.

I've never felt this way, to anyone or anything, at all,

I feel happy, and smile, but I want to curl up in a little ball.

I want to cry about so many things, yet I have no clue why,

If I'm so much in love, how come I feel like I'm going to die?