|Fear of Failure
Author: bayshel-wass PM
I'm terrified that I'm doing something wrong in my role playing right now (where I have a higher position) because posting levels are down. Evaluation time is upon us, and I am deathly afraid it will confirm my worst fears. The stress is starting to killRated: Fiction K+ - English - Angst - Words: 163 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 05-17-05 - id: 1915703
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I suffer in the shadows
My self worth falling fast.
Fear of failure haunts my mind
I can't let go of the past.
I try with every ounce of
To do the best I can.
But sometimes I feel I'm slipping
It's like being hit by a speeding van.
Scared and alone
Huddled on the ground
I await my destiny.
I await doom.
In a fog of gloom I sit
Crying inside and out.
It's not your fault, they say to me
But try as I might, I cannot that believe.
Judgment day is calling
Evaluation time is near.
I hope my world is not too badly amiss
But in deep dark fear, away I drift.
Wanting more from myself.
But how much of myself can
Why does this make it so hard to live?
My worst fears are about to be confirmed
Or so I strongly fear.