This is my friend Alex's poem. I wanted a copy of it and I asked her if I could archive it here.

She lay there still and lifeless

She was cold and growing pale

She didn't care if what she did brought sadness

She knew that now she was happy

Her life was sad and meaningless

Though she had many nice things

She was still depressed

When she was around everyone

She would smile and laugh

Her friends didn't know the truth

They couldn't see the sadness in her eyes

They didn't know her secrets or her feelings

She kept her life unknown

She didn't tell anyone anything

That's how she liked it

No one knowing

How she secretly wished she was dead every day

How she knew that she would never have anyone

To love her

How she knew that she could never be happy

She was envious of her friends

They would talk about how happy they were

With their boyfriends

And they would be together forever

It made her mad and irritated

But most of all sad and unloved

When she felt like this she wouldn't talk

She wanted to live in silence

And listen to her heart die

Knowing that nothing would change

When she would get home, she would go to her room

Stay in there the whole day

Just waiting for her parents to go to bed

She would take the knife and cut

Cut til her sadness would go away

Cut til her lonliness would leave

Cut til she felt unstressed

Cut til every bad feeling left her behind

All she wants is to be loved

All she wants is to be held

All I want is to be loved

All I want is to be held

But I know it will never happen

Because of who I am and what I do

It's fucked up in this world

People running scared because

Of how you deal with emotional pain

I feel awkward everywhere I go

I know people look down on me

People ask me if I want to stop

I say 'I guess' so they will leave me alone

But I don't want to stop

I will not stop

This world makes me want to die

And someday I hope to God I do

And end up on the floor

Cold and growing pale

With blood all around me

Showing that I hated everyone and everything

But most of all I hate myself

And that's the way it is and will be

Forever.