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First story. Read and review.
There she sat, watching him do his homework, also ignoring the noise around her. She started a conversation with him, though he at first merely responded by nodding and with an “uh huh” every once in a while. It looked as though she asked him a question, so he turned to face her. He smiled at her, and she smiled back. They looked so happy together.
And there I sat, sighing as I saw them holding hands and smiling at each other. I envied their happiness, and I longed for it more than anything. For the longest time I thought he was mine, and that he would choose me over the pretty and popular one. But, as it always goes for me, and anyone else like me, I was very wrong. I was very, very wrong once again.
I had always fallen into this kind of problem, the problem where I really liked a certain guy, and I was always too certain that he liked me back, but then realized it was all in my head and he actually liked another girl that was always prettier than I or more talented than I. The funny thing was, though, that once they dated, they would only last as a couple for about a month, and by that time, I was over the guy.
Yet unfortunately, this guy and this girl had been dating for about five months, and I still have not gotten over him yet. What was wrong with me? Why had I kept my feelings for him? Why could I not let go? He was just another guy, right? Or was I wrong? Was he more than “just another guy”? Maybe I could not let go because I had fallen too many times already, and I was afraid to get over him. But I wanted to get over him, I really did, but somehow my heart kept telling me, “No! Don’t let go!” Or maybe I had finally given as much of my heart as I could give a human being. Unlike the rest of the guys I had liked, I had actually become very good friends with this one. We knew each other very well, we knew each other’s parents also, and I had even heard from a friend of his that he liked me and not this other girl! I had actually heard from another person, not just through my own judgment, that he liked me! But this person either lied to me, or I came to him too late, that is, after he grew out of me.
Finally, the bell had rung. I gathered my things and wandered to my next class. As I stepped into the hallway, I could see the two lovebirds giggling and cuddling.
The girl shouted, “Oh my god, Theo! I can’t believe you just said that!”
Whatever it was she was talking about, I couldn’t believe he said whatever he said either. He had changed since he got together with her. He had been spending tons more time with her, and a lot less time with me. We used to always talk by ourselves about every other day for a good half hour after school. Now, it’d been limited to thirty seconds a week, and not all at once, either. It had been getting to me, since I couldn’t even have a decent conversation with him anymore. It was like I would be interfering with his relationship with his girlfriend. I bet he never realized at this point what he had been doing to me, causing me to think, and think, and think of what on Earth I did wrong to him.
And since he had been spending more time with her, he had been swearing more, saying rude things about the people she didn’t like, and now since she didn’t like them, he decided he didn’t like them either. It was almost as if he was using her to get into the cool crowd. But then again, even if someone were to watch him, he still would not seem like the type of person to use someone for his own pleasure. That is, unless he had been acting like a hypocrite ever since he started to date her.
“Anna…”
But he was like a brother to me! Why would he even think about abandoning me just so he can hang around her?
“Anna…”
I mean, sure, I'm not exactly Miss Perfect like her, but that doesn't mean you have to rid me from your social life! I have feelings too!
“Anna! Earth to Anna!”
I turned around, sighing as I realized that once again I had been thinking so hard that I had forgotten about the world around me. It was my friend Julianne; she was the type of girl that can bug anyone of her friends and they wouldn't care. I leaned my back on my now closed locker.
“Anna, you’re spacing out again. What has been getting to you recently? You’re not normally like this.”
I shook my head. “No, no you’re right. I’m not normally like this.” I tilted my head slightly to the left. “It’s just that… recently, I’ve had a lot to think about.”
She put her hand on her hip. “It’s not about Theo and Bethany, is it?”
I only sighed. “But Julianne…”
“Don’t ‘but’ me! Anna, when are you gonna get your head out of the sand and stop thinking about it? It’s practically killing you, and especially recently since it’s been going on for a long time.”
“I know it’s killing me, I know I have to stop, but… I can’t. I really can’t. Just looking at them makes me want to hurl. He’s a different person every time he’s around her, which is practically 24/7, and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do about it.”
“Well, why don’t you just talk to him?”
“I’ve told you before, I can’t even talk to him anymore.” I hung my head. Once again hope had practically drained out of my mind. Julianne could try to cheer me up, but through these moments, her attempts would cease to work. “I’ll go up to him and be like, ‘Hey, Theo! What’s up?’ and he’ll just say, ‘I’m good’ and run off to see Bethany.”
“Well then,” Julianne suggested, “Grab his arm and yank him towards you. Then keep a hold of his arm. That’ll get you to talk to him.”
I only rolled my eyes. “Like I’m gonna do that.”
“But you’re a sophomore in high school, as is everyone else mentioned in this conversation. And that means you have to start finding different ways to take care of business.”
I only shrugged at Julianne’s statement. “I… guess…”
“Oh, just do it. It’ll get a load of crap off of you, let me tell you.” She looked at her watch. “We should get to class. It’ll be starting soon. See you later, kay?”
“Yeah, sure, whatever,” I responded as she raced to the end of the hallway. My next class was right next to my locker, so I could just waltz inside any second and still be on time.
I spotted Theo in the corner of my eye. He was not with Bethany, so that meant he was free to talk to. “Okay,” I thought. “Just do what Julianne told you. Grab his arm and…”
Meh, it was ok, I guess. Dialogue was kinda corny sometimes, but it was the best I could do. Don’t be mean, just send a review and I’ll be happy. Who knows? Maybe I’ll make another chapter. It'll be longer, I know that. This was just an intro.
Vandagirl
