A/N: This was a spur of the moment type poem that I didn't want to rhyme. It expresses what I feel right now asI write it and what I want so badly right now. I don't know if anyone will want to review this but if you do, I thank you so much.

The Life You Ruined

Behind these crying eyes
My soul dies inside
My body torn from my inflicted pain
Wanting suicide
Cutting the flesh away
To deal with this longing
For you to be here again
Pretend it never happened
But it’s too late to pretend
What’s been done is irreversible
Won’t ever care if you regret it
To late to change what you’ve done
Hurt to the point of death
Death is coming near
But my death is all your fault
I dedicate my suicide to you, Carla

Chorus
Take the blame for all the shame
You’ve untruthfully put on us
Take the blame for all the shame
That you’ll always have in your eyes
And my suicide in your heart

My suicide is dedicated to you
Don’t blame it on anyone else
Take the blame for what you caused
A loser is what you are
A broken girl is what I am
A ruined career is what you left
In our house on January 15, 2004
So my death is on your record
In invisible ink
That no one else can see
But you and me
We’ll always know its there
The burden your gonna carry
I hope it slowly kills you
But I know it won’t
There’s no heart in you to kill

Chorus

Accept for once that you were wrong
But I know you’ll never let it get to you
Like it got to me
I hope it kills you slowly
Slowly and shamefully you die, but before you go
Try for one day to experience the pain
I lived with for 15 years
Of the fucking life you ruined.