Maybe I could forget

what the past has done to me

maybe I could suck it up

and get over this part of me

I hate myself right now

as almost every teenager seems to,

but I feel different in my hatred

but I'm sure that's normal as well

I want to scream to the skies

being the normal teenager I am

I want to share all that I feel with the whole world

but everyone else wants to as well.

I want to cry every waking moment

I want to be someone else

I want to start over

same, same, same

I want to pour myself into my music every waking moment

I want to sing forever and until eternity and never lose my voice

I want to ignore all those that bring with them pain

which I suppose is everyone

I want to feel that I'm doing what God wants me to

I wish I could leave for heaven right now

and forget those I've loved

without the pain and sorrow

but I can't

I love them all too much

even with the pain

but I suppose that's natural.