Darkness,

Night,

Blackness,

No Light,

My own personal purgatory

I created this myself

something of mine

in the back of my mind

always apart of me

never will it die

It haunts me

taunting me

bringing me to shame

I wallow in despair

I know life is not fair

I brought this upon myself

collecting dust on this shelf

with my clown beside

making me laugh

and yet want to cry

Edging closer,

closer to the edge

holding back laughter

eyes wide with fear

Pasty face, painted smile,

the all knowing eyes,

all seeming to want to bring

out my demise

Laughter unstoppable

sounding like a scream

erupting from deep within

Falling over the ledge

into oblivion is where i fall

Falling...

Falling...

To my death is where I am tumbling

just as suddenly

as there was something

suddenly there was nothing

no who?, when?, where? nor, why?

Here I am suspended in air

all by myself; alone

and, scared

silently screaming

no sound comes forth

silently crying

but no tears to fall

nothing, no where

just the rhythm of my breathing

quickly rising

only to fall

I wallow in despair

I know life is not fair

I brought this upon myself

collecting dust on this shelf

with my clown beside

making me laugh

and yet want to cry

Shaken into reality

tears dried on my cheeks

eyes closed tight

mouth agape from my silent scream

slowly opening my eyes

only to meet that of yours

my soul instantly lost

in the love I see there

My knight in shining armor

or king, to which you are

affectionately compared

you are my day when there is night

and when there is darkness

you are my light