Mask

Envy stitched in every smile,
Wonder filling every laugh.
Watching close her every move,
Upon her blessed path.

"Success, success!" her future cried
Oh and how events unfurled
Whoever thought this single life
Could make such difference in the world?

Frustration overcame my thoughts
"How could this ever be?"
I shame myself, my ruthless mind
Is this my jealousy?

Rip out my mind, I begged in silence
Tear away that ugly voice!
For what friend wallows deep in envy
Of a best friend's every choice?

"Success, success!" her future cried
I smiled to mask my hate
For how can I compare to her?
There's nothing to debate

But then, alas! She made a fall
Before my darkened eyes
I felt a pang of guiltiness
A tremble start to rise

My clenching fists dig deep in flesh
A tear for whom, I ask?
For her, the friend of whom you hate,
Or for this girl behind a mask?

I am a monster, I realize
Unworthy as a friend
For all this time, she loved me so
And I loved her in the end

I need an ear, her silence says
As tears begin to spill
This mask of envy shatters now
My heart begins to fill

So all this time, she's worn one too
A mask meant to conceal
She wasn't always smiling true
Though her actions were still real

And so we cried while sharing words
At last true friends at heart
But though it didn't seem as such
We were true friends from the start

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A/N: I have no idea why I decided to write this. I was just thinking about my friend ... and I thought, she is worthy of a poem--more than that. Based on earlier and difficult times (with a bit of a twist to it, not exactly true to life on the part of the narrator). I felt as if I had to add to it, some sort of storyline. But then again, it is merely based not completely true to life. This is for you, CC. You deserve each and every good thing that has happened to you. Rock on.