Author: AbstractMind PM
has a mix of emotions...wanting to but had promised not to (cut), numbing and pretending to be happy...Rated: Fiction T - English - Words: 148 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Published: 06-10-05 - id: 1936168
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And a million other emotions that most people will never feel.
I hate feelings-
I hate to feel.
I need something to take the overwhelm away
To make me emotionless;
I don't want to feel what I am feeling.
I want a blade
To take away the pain,
To take away the emotions.
Fuck wanting to feel alive;
I want to feel dead.
I want the kiss so much-
The effect of a kiss only a blade can create,
But I can't….
I promised…. I promised I wouldn't
So I sit here,
Pen in hand
Getting this out so I don't have to feel it inside eating away …
I can go back to pretending-
Pretending that I'm happy….
It's working- I'm numbing-
Numbing my pain, body and heart…
I am numb,
I feel nothing.