All the letters sitting on the counter
letters that have been left unsent
letters of goodbye
and apology
letters that state how I gave up

I could’ve sent them
all those letters
but I’d have to do what I said
I’d have to really say goodbye
on paper, and inside my head

I can imagine each persons face
when they get a letter addressed from me
explaining to them how important they are
in the last moments
to me

some of them long lost friends
that moved away
or forgot me
their letters say how I missed them
and I don't expect them to miss me

some of them to new found friends
that barely know me
but somehow they made an impact
and they are worth
saying goodbye to

then there are the ones to the good friends
the ones that have seen me through
but not this time
not anymore

Holding the letters in my hand
I can fully comprehend what they really say
the words were written long ago
but they still apply

I can feel the letters sinking through the envelope
imprinting on my hand
the words they make are apologizing
and sympathizing
yet trying to make someone smile

All these letters on the counter
sitting still and unsent
I do not want to send them yet
so I’ll leave them on the counter
fully stamped and addressed

just in case I fall today
just in case I fall tonight
I’ll be able to cause the final strokes
knowing that I said goodbye