What am I but mortal
A faceless entity of life
A desecration waiting to occur
Several times before
I’ve traveled down this road
Hoping to find a bend
That I’ve never seen before
But somewhere along the line
The conversation became immoral
Demeaning and unkind
But the part that terrifies me
Is not the pain inflicted
But the pleasure I receive
And I tear a hole into my heart
Every time I cry
With broken sobs
And burning eyes
I find a way
Yet again
To turn away existence
And I am left alone it seems
To control my diminishing sanity
‘Cause every time I close my eyes
The darkness does not come
It seems to me that I am stuck
Inside the blinding light
When I dream so desperately
To be cloaked inside the night
Terrified of waking up
I bang my head upon the wall
Watching the blood trail
That’s leading down my face
And the world spins away from me
Until all I see is darkness
Not a state of dreams I seek
But comforting non-the-less