It always starts

In the twilight that

I live in.

Where nothing’s

Good or bad,

Nothing matters.

Of course there’d be

Those times

When the Light would catch my eye.

Where the twilight

Would begin to turn

Into a shining dawn.

Is it so hard

To understand

What makes me happy?
Is it so hard

To accept

The truth about what I need?
Do I have to deal

With people like you,
Where what you say

And what you do

Always collide?

That’s right,

I’m taking the fight

Right to your damn door.

Take a seat,

And I’ll explain

It all till your ears bleed.

I’ll remind you,

About the day

I got an A on my report card.

I had come home

So proud,

I’d worked so hard to get it.

You didn’t even

See the A,

You skipped it entirely.

You went straight

To the B minus

And took a stab at my pride.

You always said,

You’d be proud the days

That I’d bring home my A’s.

Now it’s thanks to You

I have to fight

To keep it from dying.

Is it so hard

To understand

What makes me happy?
Is it so hard

To accept

The truth about what I need?
Do I have to deal

With people like you,
Where what you say

And what you do

Always collide?

Now,

Put your hands in the air,

It’s time for some more talking.

With a gun

Trained on your head,

For once in your life you can listen.

Remember graduation?
The day

That should have been all mine?

Remember

The look of horror

When there was no honors?

All you did

Was compare me

To the kid across the street.

All you did

Was make excuses,

For why his standards I didn’t meet.

You said graduation

Would be such a great day,

Where I would get my diploma.

So why

On earth,

Did you make me cry?

Is it so hard

To understand

What makes me happy?
Is it so hard

To accept

The truth about what I need?
Do I have to deal

With people like you,
Where what you say

And what you do

Always collide?

Alright,

On the floor,

With your hands behind your head.

Let me tell you

A bit more,

About the hatred you have spread.

I’ll remind you

Of the time

When I auditioned for a group.

I was so scared

And thought I’d fail,

But with luck I did it.

I came home

And told you

About how I wanted to sing.

A disgusted face

From both of you,

Was all you’d let me see.

You said

If I worked hard,

I could do anything I wanted.

You said

I could join after school groups,

Get involved you always taunted.

Here I was,

Doing what I wanted,

And shame was I’d gotten.

Is it so hard

To understand

What makes me happy?
Is it so hard

To accept

The truth about what I need?
Do I have to deal

With people like you,
Where what you say

And what you do

Always collide?

Lay down,

Keep your hands

Where I can see them.

Ignore the sound

Of two shining bullets,

Filling the chambers now.

Cause its time

For what hurt me the most,

The part that I pay for every day.

Remember the time

I told you

About the biggest secret of all?

A truth about

My character

At which you were appalled?

I knew it would

Be tough,

But did you have to be so rough?

Did you have to look me dead in the eye,

And say just how ashamed you were,

To have a son like me?

Is it so hard

To accept

The truth about what I need?
Do I have to deal

With people like you,
Where what you say

And what you do

Always collide?

You said

You wanted me happy,

I know now that’s a lie.

I’m nothing but a trophy

In front of the neighbors

You can wave.

Every time

I step outside

Of that precious image you hold.

I’m one step away

From my usefulness,

And to you I might as well die.

Is it so hard

To accept

The truth about what I need?
Do I have to deal

With people like you,
Where what you say

And what you do

Always collide?

All I want is me,

The freedom to be alive.

I don’t want to be an object,

I won’t to live and die a man.

Listen closely,

To every click

Thus gun makes while I cock it.

The last sound

You hear

Will be my freedom arriving tonight.