On This Early Summer Day

Cutting out the sorrow
Cutting out the pain
Trying to forget
The reasons you call us insane

Forgetting how it feels
To be happy inside
Trying our hardest
Our feelings we hide

But when we’ve cut out all the sorrow
And we’ve cut out all the pain
We cease to exist
But to you we’re still insane

All that’s left
Are the scars that show our past
We are ceasing to exist
At this rate we cannot last

But why am I saying we
When I am telling you how I feel
This has become my life
Reality’s no longer real

So as I sit here
And I cut out the sorrow
As I cut out the pain
I wonder if I’ll live to see tomorrow

If I were to get my way
This would be good bye
But as my alarm goes off
My suicide becomes a lie

So I get up today
And act like nothings wrong
Put on a smile for your jokes
And listen to my song

Do you notice me falling
Do you see what I’ve become
Have I fallen too far
To be seen by some

Am I disappearing from view
Are you losing a friend
Is it too late
For these scars to mend

Is there any help
Does anyone really care
I’m being left in the darkness
This life is never fair

I’ve lost hope in other people
Found my own ways to cope
And though you may think I’m happy
Inside I sit here and mope

But my smiles cover everything
Even my crimson tears
They cover my anger
They cover up my fears

But what ever happened to my happiness
Because I don’t know where it’s gone
I used to be so blissful
But I haven’t smiled in so long

But you can no longer tell
Between the real and the fake
I force myself to look happy
Though this pain I cannot take

So make this the last night
That I cry myself to sleep
And make this the last time
That I make anyone weep

Don’t follow in my footsteps
‘Cuz look where it took me
Cutting out my sorrow and pain
Wishing that I was free

But there’s only one way to be free
And that’s the way I took
No one could see anything wrong
No matter how hard they would look

They never saw the real me
Or all the tears I have cried
I always said I was fine
You never thought I lied

So I say good bye to you now
Those last words are what I say
Before I take my life
On this early summer day