Choosing

You put your hand in mine
And everything felt perfect
Nothing can go wrong now
The sun was shining down on us
And everything was bright

You smile down at me
And everything feels right
I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time
But there’s another face in the back of my mind
Trying to cover up yours

I’ve loved him for a long time now
But when I’m with you
Things just seem so perfect
Yet I wonder if you
Are going to be the new him?

It’s weird to think of you in this way
I never dreamed it was possible
Not this quickly, not now
I never thought I could live without him
But what if I had you instead?

Questions spin in and out of my mind
I can’t tell one face from the other
Your hands, your smile, your laugh
His face, his voice, his hair
All merged slowly into one

I want to separate the him from you
And the you from him
But you both have managed to capture my heart in separate ways
I need to choose between you
But my heart’s not making it easy

I liked him after a short time
Loved him not long after
You’ve been here for so long
And yet you took my heart in one simple moment
What took me months to feel with him, happened at once with you

I can still feel your hand in mine
Can see your face smiling at me
But I can hear his voice in my head
Can see his eyes in my dreams
And my heart can’t make up its mind

There’s nothing wrong with either of you
You both are wonderful to me
But he and I have something
You and I do not have
But so do you and I have something special that him and I do not

I know you don’t like me
You know I’ve got a flame for him
And I felt kinda silly telling you about him that day
Especially when I later felt myself falling for you
But have I really fallen?

Is this really something?
Or is it only of the moment?
So fast, so hard I’ve fallen
And you don’t even know
Or do you?

He doesn’t know I love him
And you don’t know how you made me feel that night
I still feel like I love him
But you made my heart skip
And filled my stomach full of butterflies

Is it him or you that I think of most?
Which one do I care for more?
What am I supposed to do?
I cannot like you both
But I also cannot choose

I see you with her, with any girl
And I feel jealous
Just like I do with him
And yet so much stronger
I feel myself drifting towards you

Forget how I felt that night
Sleep it off, but Monday morning dawns again
As I see you in the hallway
My eyes follow you around the corner
And his face begins to fade from my mind

Your number is on the edge of my fingertips
Your name on the edge of my lips
Any silly excuse to talk to you I use
But I can’t think of a thing to say to him
I’m too wrapped up in you

I took his picture off my shelf
And wanted to replace it with one of you
But I couldn’t bring myself to do it
It seemed too final
Too real, too harsh

I still don’t know which one of you to choose
But no one said I must
I can love you both
Without saying or doing a thing
And feel my heart tear forever in two

Just wait and see what happens
Seems to be the best advice
Follow my heart
Though it’s going two different ways
And see what comes of it