"You are injured."

Oh god the pain, please, just please take the pain away. Please, please,pleasepleaseplease

"You are dying."

Her lips soft the last time we kissed Good bye then, the train, the pain, please please, the pain.

"We can not stop that from happening,"

Stop, stop. Just stop it all please, oh the pain, so bright, so loud, just stop it, pleasepleaseplease

"Do you want a second chance?"

Yes

"Then die."

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That kiss, that last kiss it's pressure still on my lips, I awoke. Dark, it was so dark. Nothing, not even the flashes that the eye itself will generate out of boredom in darkness. Silence, in many ways more daunting then the darkness, for the silence reinforced my sense of aloneness. I couldn't be dead, I thought grasping at my sense of self. I remembered I was in an accident though. I couldn't feel anything, my legs, my body, nothing. Visions of being buried alive began to haunt me. Or even worse maybe being trapped in my own body as a vegetable maintained by mednano and matronly nurses who clucked as they splattered food all over your face to reassure the family that you were still alive. Look he's eating they'd say, all the while the only thing keeping your carcass breathing is an army of thousands of little machines stimulating nerves , stabilizing cell growth, repairing cell damage.

I didn't want to be that living corpse, oh please something, let me know that I'm alive. I cried out to the dark around me, unable to hear my own voice, just it's echo in my mind. After a while my cries became incoherent before subsiding into a babbling murmur. Oh pleasepleaseplease let me be alive, pleasepleaseplease, let me be alive, oh please, oh pleasepleaseplease. I don't know how long passed. I had no way to gauge time, I didn't feel hunger, I didn't have to use the washroom; there was no sun. I didn't feel tired either, but after a while I began to feel neither awake nor tired. As though I was trapped in that moment between the two, when you can just sense reality, and your body, yet you are still caged by the lock of sleep from interacting with it. My mind was slow to catch on to this but when I realized that I may be sensing something I strained towards it. Trying with all my will to touch it, feel it, hear it, see it, whatever I could achieve. Oh please let my eyes open, let me see again, anything even a matronly nurse with pureed carrots. I could feel something, but it wasn't responding to any commands that I sent to it, as though it didn't hear me no matter how loud I screamed at it with my mind. I felt frustration building and then rage at the world, at the train, and finally my body. Open my eyes, just open do it. All my strength went into the command and the effort left me mentally exhausted. Nothing. The feeling of being lost was getting overpowering and I remembered her. If nothing else I thought I could have my memory of her. I relaxed into her waiting arms and gave up my efforts to regain control of my body. Perhaps this was the way to heaven after all.

System Startup Initiated

She slipped from my arms as light began cascading into my mind. The words a glowing presence in my thoughts.

Power Supply Nominal

I could see a room around me, and bulky objects, I had trouble adjusting to depth still, and the colours seemed off. As I noted that they shifted and the image started to stabilize.

Scanning Systems Online

I began to get a sense for my 'body'. I could feel that I was tall, 12 feet at least, and heavy, I carried weight lower it seemed and my arms felt different.

BioOrganic System Activated

With a jolt that felt almost like electricity, I suddenly could feel information flowing into my mind and nervous system. I knew what I was now, I was a cyborg.

Weapons Systems Ready

I was a soldier.