Painful Kisses

Friday June 25th 2005

I remember that night

We were at a party

Hints- I knew you’d be there

I knew you’d show up

But you brushed me off

Something was up

You were melancholy

I was sad

Flashing lights-Metal music

Cigarette smoke blown in my face

Tired and a bit sad, I laid down on the couch

You on top of me

I laid my head back, but my hat fell off

Pretending to sleep, faking to not know your touch

Suddenly I felt hot, moist lips on mine

Was it an illusion

Was it a dream?

I kept my eyes close afraid I’d wake up to find it un true

But no

I taste you and feel a cold chill apon my lips

The moisture is still there

I peek up at you

Light bulbs burned brightly in my eyes

I smile-you smile

Suddenly you bend over me again, casting a shadow

I feel safe

Sexy

And warm

Drowning in your lips

Dancing together –tongue to tongue

I want more of you

More of this

We slowly pull back

Suddenly it’s today

I’m here

You’re there

Bright blue lies

Cascade from your eyes

Confusion

One moment you love me

The next you don’t

You never said “I love you”

Or even “I care”

Now I get it

Friends with Benefits

But I can’t resist these memories that I gave up to you

We shared

What once was good

Is now painful