Are you reading this entry with any more interest than usual? Hmm... I suppose the part I'm dissapointed in is the sheer lack of creativity. Three magazines, three out of the six. Big letters the words, "Sex". "10 Sex Fantasy's from Real Guys!" "Increase Sexual Contact, Learn more!" "SEX SEX BLAH SEX." The other three magazines were like, Homes and Gardens and cooking magazines. Yeah, I'd love to read in a magazine how best to please my lover because, God forbid I get to know him or anything too personal. After all, it's only sex, right? I want to impress him with knowledge and experience I don't have but learned from a magazine! How exciting! It's so obviously out there. There's no mystery, allure, feeling of something secret and fun... it's just, sex. Blah. Whatever. It's like, milk, eggs, bread, sex, chicken, cheese. I mean, what's the big deal about playboy magazines when you can watch it all live online or on television. I mean, you can pretty much watch it during decent television hours. Forget needing to be 18, you just need to know how to type in the letters "S" "e" and "x" in the little google search box. Sex is an emotional, physical, spiritual, and mental way of getting as close as you can to someone and attempting to melt and merge. Sex is both love and desire that comes from love. And the more we desensitize it, the more people just think, "Oh well, let's go have sex." Yeah, good idea. Casual sex. It feels good for the moment... but personally, I'd rather feel good (for the moment and moments to come leading up to days and weeks and 11 months even) emotionally and mentally and spiritually by love's awesome glow than just physically by a casual sexual experience. Personally I love falling in love and continuing to fall into love and my entire world has come down to two deep brown eyes - and here time stops. What does the next second bring? Well, whatever it is I assure you it will be filled with love.