A/N - Written during writers block... suckly, i know. But, oh well. I'm still pretty sad about this, but... it doesn't hurt as bad anymore. All because of someone new, but... that's another story

I lie awake,

wondering where you are now.

What did I do to make you leave?

I don't know how to make you come back.

But, I'm not sure I want to.

I dialed your phone a couple months back

my heart stopped at the sound of your voice

I was mad,

and I was amazed I wasn't crying.

I wanted to know the answers.

I'm glad you didn't give them to me.

I guess it's better off not knowing.

What happened to that word that you used

Love

"I will always love you"

Doesn't always mean forever?

What happened to always?

What happened to the promises?

Why did you tell me you would keep me away from the pain

when you were the one to cause the most of it.

You lied.

But, I didn't.

I said I would always love you

And I will.

I said I will never love anyone more,

And I probably won't,

just love them just the same.

Cause I don't think it's possible.

I wonder if that's why you warned me.

But, you didn't push me away.

or... was this the push?