He confuses me so much and yet I love him still.

Just another teen, another story, another face in the crowd
Drifting in, drifting out, wanting to scream, wanting to shout
Day after day, pass me by, where’s the time, the time for me
Breezy walk down memory lane, hellish winds, darkening sky
What do you want, want from me, who am I, who will I be
Try so hard, hard to change, losing you, losing us, losing me
Collecting scars, rivulets of blood, emo angst, weak, weak, weak
Crying, falling, trying, failing, slowly dying, slowly wasting
Problem, flood, no room to move, no energy to cry, help
What have I become, shout the words, I hate you so, the end
Pull me out, drowning, I’m begging, I’m pleading, save me
I hate you, I love you, I need you, I want you, where are you
Obsession, compassion, emotion, solution, no, losing my grip
The anger, the pain, the betrayal, the lies, the web, you’ve spun
Writing, drawing, outlet, jammed, no words, no lines, no love
Cut off, cut apart, cut from inside, starting to die, into darkness
Won’t eat, won’t sleep, must improve, need you, miss you
Molding me, shaping me, will I ever be, shut me up, shut me out
Talk, talk, talk, can’t understand, confusion abound, who are you
Shut up, I can’t take it, don’t love, don’t need you, don’t want you
Tear me apart, help me please, beg on my knees, get me out
Lost in a maze, a haze of confusion, flash flood of images
Memories, daydreams, fantasies, nightmares becoming reality
Oh shit, oh fuck, oh pride be damned, I love you, please
All I want, all I need, please, love me, want me, not good enough
I try so hard, will I ever be, it hurts, it hurts, won’t stop, won’t give up
Is this love, it can’t be, it causes too much pain, too much heartache
All I ask, love me, let me go, drown me, do whatever, make it stop
Can’t take how I feel for you, can’t stand it, I need you