All I Wanted

All I wanted wasn't this

This is beyond me

And I stare

Transfixed

As we flash before my eyes

I acted on impulse

The one time I knew not to

The thing that mattered most

I treated lightly and I knew

That was worse

Knew I was a train wreck

Knew I could stop me

And didn't

Careless words

Thoughtless actions

While behind my eyes I screamed

I could see you pull away

My mind cried out

My mouth formed words I died to hear

Why?

Flashed through me

The void you left behind you

I screwed up

And I don't know why

In all my life

You're all that mattered