Fantastic Damage

Chapter Four - The Rest

So I die. Then what? Does he grow? Does any of this have a point? The totality of my self will be radically simplified, pretty much deleted into dirt, but for some reason my true self will remain untouched. Don't ask me how I know this. Guess it's the way I'm wired.

In any case I'm getting the short end of the stick. Like I said, it's not skin of his nose. He's just losing chastity. Childhood's End.

In this way Vastaire would challenge the world.

Well that's what I thought.

He came at me, knocked me down and disapeared into a black eye, lidless and rushing ever deeper into itself, a vast power born from long suppressed memories and feelings. My EM spectrogram blinked to Gamma rays at the epicenter, disturbing anomalies, accelerated BETA decay, Nuclear fission, gravitational deterioration and the appearance of elementary particles...

Evidence suggesting a new, mini big bang.

And honestly, the one thing I felt above everthing else...

Relief.

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He left the lights on for me to find my way back.

I didn't stay long after that, not even for you. The earth was pissed. The moon was ruined and so were the seasons.

I never really did find what I was looking for on Earth. I guess I never will. No one in America. I guess I missed my chance, thanks to Vastaire.

But oh, my son, I can still feel him, cold like a missing arm. I visited the moon before I left, took the short way. It wasn't as beautiful.

And now I'm here.

The rest you know.