“last day of school”

i guess the last day of high school is always filled with amalgamated emotions

for some it is the first day of a nice lazy summer, or the beginning of an adventurous summer.

it can be the last day of childhood, and the start of needing to be responsible, and become an adult.

it's a day when you leave things behind - your classes, your teachers, your locker, your friends...

but take the memories with you.

for some it is a little bit of all of the above, or of many of the above.

for me, today, it was not quite an end. yes, i cleaned out my locker and said good-bye to my teachers,

and i also had to part unwillingly with many of whom i considered to be my friends.

though i may see many of them again, there are some i may not see again, some i will only see once in a blue

moon, and others that i will try to keep in touch with, but lose that closeness geographically, and eventually, all

that will be left of them are the memories that i took away today.

i am the only one who is coming back... through my own faults, of course.

i wish it wasn't so, that my companions and i should have to divide, and i only hope the best for them.

my mistakes have led me to this pit of melancholy where i lie, bewildered.

and it is in this chasm that i realize that i'm not leaving them behind... they are leaving me behind.