Dear God-

God its been such a good day
I'd really like to die.
I'd love it if you opened the clouds
and took my life away.
And God then I'd love you,
I'd have some reason to believe,
In you're infinite grace,
and this fucking thing called mercy.
I've been shown none all my years,
Kicked around and shoved down.
Awake all night sleeping all day,
Amounted to nothing but a puddle of tears.
So God if you're listening
like the books say you are,
Then open the heavens
and heal all my scars.
I'm tired of showing them,
On the outside as well as In...
Its been long and hard my 17 years,
Pondering the ultimate Sin.
So God please come
Take my demons away,
Clear the voices in my head
Replace dispair and dismay.
With feelings of joy,
of foreign feelings of Happy,
Let me sleep eternally
I want to know that I'm more than a toy.
GOD ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?
GOD ARE YOU TOO BLIND TO SEE?
GOD IF YOU CREATED ME
THEN GOD YOU CAN TAKE ME!!
Take me and tell them my life was a lie
Take me and tell them not to worry or cry
And when they bury me in the cold hard ground
Tell them I'll always be somewhere to be found.
Wipe the tears from their lying dead eyes
Then show me what love really means.
I think I've suffered enough for you
Please God...I'm begging you...take away my pains.