Regretful

9/5/05

I can sense Your relentless gaze
Sending tingles down my side, through my being
(unnerving…intense)
((…lure me in…))

You’re distracting me from my tête-à-tête,
(Damn it…!)
My friend here just said something funny
I didn’t get it he’s looking suspicious
((…keep up my pretense…))

Who are You?
Why have I caught Your attention…?
((…whoever You are…))

I can’t look back at You
((…can’t bring myself to…))
But…
(Who are You really?)

Stop…
(don’t stare; don’t look)
Why can I still feel You? Your gaze; why do You…?
((…look away…))

A second, an eternity
Conversation seems to slow
(I’m fully distracted)
Nervous
Frustration
((…goose bumps, a fluttering deep inside…))
What’s wrong with You? What’s wrong with me?

A quick glance to the side
A brief connection
Stop staring!
(God, what the hell is happening?)

Sorry, I need to take care of something.
Break off the conversation
((…turn to You…))
(keep cool, stay dispassionate)
Saunter confidently
((…fooling You…))

You look so familiar
((…gorgeous…))
(from back here)
Your half smile, Your suave posture
Where, when have I seen You before…?

Why do You stare at me like that?
(Who…are You…)

I stop behind You
((…masked emotions…))
And You turn to me

For the briefest moment
I’m taken aback
(It’s…You…! I can’t believe this…)
((…no emotions leak…))

God, your smile
(still the same;
still so charming,
still so lethal)
Your eyes
(still so beautiful)
(more elegant, more mature)
Your expression…
(still so you)

((…antipathy…))
Do you know
How much I still despise you?
How much I want to humiliate you?
How much I want revenge?

Don’t look so innocent
(it’s not befitting)
Don’t look so hopeful
(it’s not the time)

Don’t look so shocked
(you should have anticipated it)

The people around us laugh, whispers ripple all around
(disdainful, pitying)
I’ve carried out my mission
((…so why…))

So why
(I head back to my amused friend)
Why do I feel so
(He’s going to want an explanation)
Regretful?

((…lost one chance…))

Notes: This is from the POV of the other guy from Presumptuous… Heehee. :D