Verge of a Meltdown

It hurts so much deep inside
Some distant part that longs to fly
Far from the piece that aches to die.
Slowly shut my door and turn to sigh
Wish I knew, when I always wonder why
All I can ever do is cry.
Everything seem so pointless, even when I try
Used up, sick, tired, and I
Wish I could escape it all
Before I fall
Out my window which is open.
The air feels good against my hot skin.
Then from somewhere deep within
A phantom hand probes “the biggest sin.
…but quitters never win…
Is all I ever wanted was to shut out the world?
To be somewhere else where I’m heard?
Instead of seen and then forgotten
Something piled in yesterdays garbage.
Withdrawing in myself with a gun,
Romantic ideas of fleeing to run,
But no one would care once it’s been done.
It may be my life, but it'sless worth it to some.
So instead I will bleed my heart right here,
Gut myself with words of death so near.
A ghost that follows me and I wish it would go,
But instead it just leers.
The phone rings loudly I look at the beast,
Wishing you all would just give me peace.
“GO AWAY!” Knock it to the floor
“NO PLEASE STAY!” I cant get up anymore…