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Author: TurtleGoddess
Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Reviews: 134 - Published: 08-07-05 - Updated: 07-02-08 - id:1980287

A/N: To make up for my long absence, here is a super-long chapter! A lot of important stuff happens, so enjoy...

Thirteen

I banged the keyboard of my father’s laptop in frustration. Lils hadn’t written back to me. Usually, she was very good about checking her e-mail. Where was she? I wanted to know how she was reacting to the ‘Sean getting wasted’ story. I swiveled around in my chair to face Ian, who was reading off of a pamphlet about major Ohio cities that he’d picked up at a rest stop a while ago. We were hanging out in the main room of the RV. It was late at night and thankfully, Sean was still completely out thanks to his wine drinking escapade.

“Cincinnati was the first major city in the United States to be located inland,” Ian rambled. “Fountain Square, where we are headed, has been in existence since 1871. Today, it serves as the symbolic center of the city.”

“That’s great, Ian,” I said.

“I think we should definitely eat some chili while we’re there,” Ian continued. “Cincinnati is famous for chili. Although Sean doesn’t really like chili, but I guess he can get something else.”

I snorted. “Hey, Ian, out of curiosity… Does the world know that under Sean’s tough exterior, he’s a total sissy boy? I mean, he has no tolerance for alcohol OR spicy food!”

Ian shuffled his feet. “I couldn’t say. I haven’t spent much time with Sean in New York recently. He’s changed a lot since when I lived there. He has a different group of friends and different activities he does. I have no idea what people think of him, besides… Well, you know, our old friends aren’t very happy with how he is now. But people change over time. It’s just a fact of life.”

I nodded. “So he wasn’t always like this?”

“Like what?” Ian wondered.

“A disgruntled misogynist pretending to be cooler than he is?”

I was proud of using a big word. I’d been reviewing for the SATs the other day, so I knew a misogynist was a woman-hater.

“Um… No, he was not always like this,” Ian said. “But really, Sierra, I don’t think Sean is a complete misogynist.”

“Oh, yeah, I forgot,” I said sarcastically. “He doesn’t hate all girls. Just stupid and annoying girls like me.”

I was starting to think Ian had been born with a red face. He blushed unusually often.

“I don’t think he really hates you,” said Ian. “You heard him when he was, ah, under the influence, didn’t you? He said he didn’t hate you. I know he was drunk, but still…”

“Then if it is true, why does he treat me like dirt?” I asked.

Ian looked at his feet. “I think I know why, but I don’t think Sean would want me to tell you. Sorry.”

“Oh, come on!” I cried. “I won’t tell him you told me. I won’t even act differently. I just want to know if his hatred is legit or not. If he hates me for a good reason, then maybe I can actually deal with it.”

Ian hesitated, but I could see his defenses cracking. He could not resist my sweet, innocent puppy face. I knew he couldn’t.

“Fine,” he blurted out. “But you really can’t say anything. Sean will kill me!”

“I won’t,” I said. “I swear. You can do something awful to me if I do.”

Ian took a deep breath. I leaned forward in anticipation. I was excited to find out the truth, although I didn’t know why. What exactly was I was expecting?

“I think you remind him of Melissa.”

And there was that Melissa girl again. I was growing tired of her.

“Who is she?” I asked. “You guys talk about her a lot. Or at least, Sean does. Is it some girl he desperately loves but who hates him?”

Ian shook his head. “Melissa definitely didn’t hate Sean. They went out for almost eight months during the past year. Then, she ended things with him only several weeks after his parents announced they were getting a divorce.”

For once, I was at a loss for words. Was that a pang of sympathy I was feeling?

“It was awful,” Ian went on. “Sean was already upset about his parents, and he probably thought he could rely on Melissa for support. She did seem like a really nice girl, when I met her. She isn’t the type to just leave someone during a difficult time. And they seemed like they were really happy together. The whole thing came out of nowhere. She called him crying and broke up with him over the phone. Sean wouldn’t talk to anyone for a week afterward.”

I bit my lip. Part of me felt bad for Sean – that must’ve sucked to go through. On the other hand, if Sean had treated Melissa anything like he treated me, he probably deserved it, right?

I leaned forward. “Do you know why she dumped him?”

Ian shrugged. “I can’t say for sure. I think she was under a lot of stress. She participated in a lot of activities, so she was always busy. But it definitely wasn’t because they were having problems or fights or anything like that. Sean genuinely liked Melissa. He changed a lot for her – he stopped partying as much, and he would go to school activities she was involved in even though they weren’t the type of thing any of his friends would go to. He used to play soccer, but he quit the team when his teammates kept getting on his case about how much he did for Melissa.”

So that was why Sean had been angry at the mention of sports during our ‘colleges’ discussion.

“Maybe she was cheating on him,” I suggested, thinking of all of the crazy soap operas Lils and I had watched on our lazy days last month.

“Maybe,” Ian said. “I met Melissa a few times, but I don’t know her very well. My theory is that she couldn’t handle all of Sean’s conflicts with his family and friends. I think he talked about how he was sacrificing things for her and she wasn’t sacrificing things for her a little too often, and it bothered her. The situation with his parents just pushed him over the edge when it came to complaining, which probably caused her decision to end it. She didn’t want to be swallowed by his problems. Also, Melissa was very dedicated to dance. I think she felt Sean was holding her back when it came to dance auditions and what-not.”

Yep. Ian had definitely taken some college level psychology classes.

“Sean’s having a lot of trouble getting over the whole thing,” Ian continued. “I can understand that. No one, not even his parents, is being supportive about the Melissa situation, and now he’s stuck on a trip with people he hardly knows.”

As much as I hated to admit it, I could understand Sean’s anger, too. I’d never had anything like that happen to me, but it must’ve been awful to have no one to rely on. I’d always had Lils, so even when my family or other friends or anyone had gotten me down, Lils had been there to cheer me up. And I certainly understood not wanting to go on a road trip with a group of crazy people, some of whom were strangers. I hadn’t wanted to do that, either.

“But why do I remind him of Melissa?” I asked, recalling Ian’s first comment. “It sounds like she’s a freakish overachiever.”

Ian smiled sadly. “That is a strangely appropriate description, actually. Don’t worry, you aren’t exactly like Melissa. I just think you have some things in common. Like you look a little bit like her. And you’re really outgoing. Melissa was the kind of girl who was friends with everyone.”

I snorted. “I am definitely not friends with everyone. Why would Sean think that?”

Ian was once again as red as a tomato. “You just seem to talk to people so easily.”

I made a face. It was strange to hear what people who didn’t know you very well thought of you. What would Ian and Sean think if they’d seen me at school? Ian and I even went to the same school, but I never saw him there because he took a lot of college courses. At lunch, I sat with Lils and a couple of other girls. I was the last picked during gym class. I sat by myself on the bus. I wasn’t a social butterfly or the most popular. But for some reason, I came off that way outside of school. For anyone to think of me that why was almost a compliment.

“Well, whatever,” I said finally. “I won’t mention anything to him. But if he really wants to get over her, he shouldn’t talk about her so much.”

“I know,” said Ian. “I’m trying to get him to forget about her, but it’s hard. She was his life for eight months.”

I opened my mouth to say something when I was interrupted by a cheery, “You’ve got mail!” I whirled around to see a brand new message from Lils sitting in my inbox with the subject title, “Waaaaahhhhh!!”.

“I guess I’ll go to bed,” Ian said. “Hopefully Sean will feel better tomorrow and I can distract him.”

“Yeah,” I said. “I hope there’s something cool to do in Cincinnati. I think we could all use a distraction.”


To: Sierra614

From: LilsRulz530

Subject: Waaaaahhhhh!!

Sorry I’m a little slow getting back to you… I just got back from GETTING ICE CREAM WITH ROBIN. Um, okay, well, don’t jump to conclusions. It wasn’t a date or anything. In fact, we didn’t even go into the ice cream place together. But we did come out together! Here’s the story – I went to get ice cream with Delia and Cassie, since Cassie works at the ice cream place and had really good discount coupons. When we got there, I saw Robin and One-Piece Girl sitting there!! I freaked out. Delia and Cassie told me to be casual, though, so I did my best.

We got ice cream and then went to say hi to Robin, since the other girls know him from school, too. Then Robin introduced One-Piece Girl, who, as it turned out, is an exchange student from Germany named Anja! She is actually staying with Robin’s family because she will be attending school here in the States in the fall and wanted to adjust to the USA first. Robin’s family has German heritage, so that’s why he signed up for the program. She isn’t always with him because sometimes, she goes places with Robin’s mom, for shopping and such. Robin and Anja are definitely not a couple, but he goes out of his way to be nice to her since she doesn’t speak perfect English or know many people yet, which, in my opinion, is totally sweet! I am so relieved; you don’t even know. I didn’t waste all of those years obsessing over him after all.

We sat down with Robin and Anja, and Delia and Cassie were asking Anja about Germany, so I was sort of just talking to Robin. And for once, it wasn’t totally awkward! He asked what I had been doing this summer, and I said not much, since you were on your road trip. Then he said a road trip sounded cool, so we ended up talking about what places we wanted to visit, and we found out that both of our dream vacations are in Paris! Then we realized we were eating the same kind of ice cream with the same toppings. It was a great moment. Suddenly, Delia and Cassie were like, “Oh, we’re going to show Anja this store across the street” and they left me there alone with him! So we just kept talking. It was awesome. Then we left and met back up with the others. I came in Cassie’s car, but I live closer to Robin than I do to Delia or Cassie, so Robin actually gave me a ride home. The ride wasn’t even awkward, even though Anja was there. She is really nice and she seemed to get that I am obsessed with Robin and smiled meaningfully at me. I told Robin we should hang out again some time, and he agreed. Anja says I should go over Robin’s house so we can have ‘traditional German food’ night! She is already planning it. I am so excited that I can hardly even think straight anymore. Schnitzel and apfelstrudel, here I come!

Yeah, so… I had to get that out of my system. Sorry. Now that I’m done, I will respond to your e-mail, which I have not actually read yet. Haha, mad Latin skills. That’s funny. …OMG, Sean got wasted? No way! That’s amazing. I wish I had been there. Or that you had taken pictures. But I know you’re not mean like that. That’s crazy about what he said. He probably secretly doesn’t hate you but needs to seem like he’s manly and in control so he acts like he does. Boys are weird like that sometimes. Yeah, definitely find out who Melissa is. She’s probably some cheerleader who Sean was sickly obsessed with. Hahahaha. High in the middle and round on the ends… Oh, I know! O-HI-O! Yeah, I don’t know much about what there is to do there, but I hope it’s fun.

So, about Colin… Yeah, I can’t really say anything about that because he hasn’t been here for a while. He disappeared about a week ago. I think he might be on vacation. But I’ll definitely give you an update as soon as he pops up again.

And now, this ridiculously long e-mail will come to a close. May your travels be spifferific.

Lils


Knowing the truth about Melissa changed everything. I couldn’t look Sean in the eye anymore. I didn’t want to risk blurting out something about her to him, so I couldn’t really stand to even be in close proximity with him, either. Of course, doing those things hadn’t been easy before, but at least then it was because I hated Sean, not because I was afraid of shattering his fragile emotional state.

Our arrival to Cincinnati meant that it was time for more unfamiliar city adventures. I was hoping today’s events would be more low-key. In fact, I was in the mood for some hardcore outlet shopping. I was even willing to go with my mother to do this. I told her I needed new socks as an excuse, and she agreed to the plan immediately.

“We can have a girls’ day out!” she said excitedly. “Maybe we can even go for manicures or massages or something…”

My eyes widened with horror. “Let’s just keep it to shopping and Starbucks, okay?”

Plans were formed. My father would take Tommy and Jake to the children’s play area of Fountain Square, which had an interactive water section. Ian wanted to explore, so naturally, Sean, who was feeling better, decided to tag along with him. Mr. Norris decided to start the day off with his son and then head over to where my dad was later. Everyone would meet at five o’clock at the fountain in the center to go get dinner.

Shopping wasn’t as bad as I had expected. There was a huge Macy’s, considering their headquarters were in Cincinnati too, and also a Gap, so I got some nice clothes. There was also a mall, so I managed to find a souvenir shop, a bookstore, and a number of other cool places. The hours flew by, and soon, we were trekking back to the center of the square holding countless shopping bags. I was in a good mood because I’d had a Sean-free day and a chai latte.

I could already see everyone waiting at the fountain as we approached. For once, Sean didn’t seem completely miserable. In fact, he almost seemed… normal. My brothers were hyper and excited as usual. My father, on the other hand, seemed tired and ready to go order a big steak somewhere.

“We should probably take these back to the RV,” my mom said as we arrived.

“I have the key,” my dad said. “I can go back with you to drop them off. Why don’t the rest of you head over to Morton’s Steakhouse to get a table and we’ll catch up?”

My arms hurt from carrying the bags, so I readily agreed to this plan and handed everything over to my father. He lugged everything away with my mother following.

“Did you have a good time shopping, Sierra?” Ian asked.

“Yeah,” I said. “Did you guys have a good time?”

“Yes,” Ian replied. “We saw a lot of interesting things in the square, such as –”

“Hey, Ian?” Sean interrupted. “Not now. Please.”

Our exchange had felt almost normal, until Sean had budded in. Why did he have to make everything weird? I wrinkled my nose.

Ian shrugged, almost seeming unperturbed. “Okay. Well, it was fun.”

The conversation came to an abrupt end, so I turned my attention to Tommy and Jake. Ian and Sean soon became occupied by Mr. Norris. We wandered into the steakhouse. There was a short wait, so Mr. Norris put our names onto the list and we took a seat in the waiting area.

I had zoned out a little, having been tired from walking around all day, when a familiar voice snapped me out of my daze.

“Hey, Sierra? Is that you?”

Fate had somehow finally decided to smile upon me. Before me stood none other than my hot-as-always crush, Colin of the killer smile.

“Colin?” I said in a voice that was borderline shrieky, bolting upright. “Oh my God, what are you doing here?”

“I was about to ask you that question!” he said as he moved in front of me. “My aunt and uncle live here, so I’ve been here with my parents for the past couple of days. I guess this is another stop on your road trip, huh?”

“Yeah!” I said, my heart beating so fast I thought it might explode. The restaurant was also getting hotter, somehow. “You remembered what I was doing?”

“Sure,” Colin said, flashing The Killer Smile. “Angela wouldn’t shut up about it. I think she wanted to go on a road trip. She’s stuck at home this summer.”

At the mention of Angela, I became considerably less excited.

“Oh. Um, so how is Angela?”

Colin shrugged. “Good. We broke up, actually.”

My jaw dropped. “No way! Really?”

“Yeah,” he said. “We were never really serious, anyways. It wasn’t that big of a deal. She didn’t seem that upset, and honestly, I’m not too devastated either.”

“Wow,” I said.

His smile returned. “Yeah, well, she really wasn’t my type. I mean, wasn’t that obvious? Remember when I ran into you and Lils at Rita’s? I could tell you guys were thinking, ‘Why is he going out with her?’ I was thinking the same thing.”

I turned red. “Well, she does seem kind of… demanding.”

“That’s one way to put it,” Colin conceded. He then looked over at the people next to me. “So are you just here with your family?”

I hadn’t noticed Tommy, Jake, Ian, Sean, and Mr. Norris were all staring at us until that moment.

“Sort of,” I said, my face heating up again. “My parents are putting some things in the RV, but those two are my little brothers, Tommy and Jake. Um, and the others are family friends. Mr. Norris works with my dad, and that’s his son Ian and Ian’s friend Sean.”

“Hi!” Colin greeted everyone.

Mr. Norris and Ian politely returned the greeting. Sean sat with his arms crossed and eyed Colin suspiciously.

“Are you a friend of Sierra’s?” Mr. Norris asked conversationally.

“Yeah,” Colin said. “We go to school together.”

“What a coincidence that you ran into each other here,” Mr. Norris commented.

“Yeah, definitely,” agreed Colin. “If you’d told me you were going to stop here on your trip, I would’ve told you I was coming too and we could’ve planned something!”

By then, Colin’s parents had wandered over. They had been standing across the room and had only just noticed their son was missing. That was a little sad.

“Oh, you’re Sierra Masterson, right?” Colin’s mother exclaimed. “I know your mother from the gym! We do spinning together sometimes.”

Okay, so my parents weren’t the only embarrassing ones in the world. Thank God.

“That’s me,” I said.

“How crazy to run into you here,” his mom continued. “Colin must’ve told you we have family here in Cincinnati. My husbands grew up here, so his parents and his brothers still live in the area. I suppose you’re just visiting?”

“Yeah,” I said.

“It’s a great city,” Colin’s father chimed in. “Have you enjoyed your visit so far?”

“Yeah,” I said. “It’s really nice.”

Although all I’d done was go shopping. But I’d still had a better time here than I’d had in, say, Baltimore or Washington, D.C. And my time here was vastly improving thanks to Colin’s mere presence.

Colin’s parents then felt the need to introduce themselves to everyone else. As they were doing this, my parents showed up and all of the introductions continued. My mom knew Colin through his mother and vaguely through me. I think she might’ve known that I liked Colin thanks to having eavesdropped on one of me and Lils’ gossip sessions, but thankfully, she didn’t say or do anything to worsen the situation, for once.

“Hey, why don’t we all sit together?” Colin’s mother suggested. “It would be nice to catch up, right? We haven’t had spinning together for almost a month! We could just push several tables together…”

I suddenly loved Colin’s mother whole-heartedly. Thanks to her desire to catch up with my mother, I would now be able to spend even more time with Colin!

“That would be great!” my mom agreed. “We should tell the hostess.”

Soon, our party of eight had expanded to a part of eleven. Unfortunately, this lengthened our wait a bit, but I didn’t mind, since Colin was more important than my empty stomach. Sean looked extremely peeved at this situation, but you know what? Too bad for him.

“So where have you guys been so far?” Colin wanted to know.

I was in the midst of recapping our escapades in Philadelphia, Baltimore, Washington, D.C., Williamsburg, and Charleston when we were finally seated. I sat right across from Colin and in between Ian and my mother. Sean was on the other side of Ian, thankfully. Everyone ordered. I was not afraid of steak, like some girls, so I ordered a healthy portion of it. I finished recounting my crazy journey as the appetizers and drinks were arriving.

“Sounds like you’re having fun, then,” Colin said.

“I guess so,” I lied.

“Are you guys enjoying the trip?” Colin asked, suddenly including Ian and Sean in the conversation.

Ian nodded. “Yes, it’s, um, very interesting.”

“You go to Woodland High, right?” Colin said.

“Yes,” said Ian. “But I’m not there all of the time, which is probably why you haven’t really seen me.”

“He takes a lot of classes at Woodland Community College and Princeton,” I chimed in.

Colin seemed impressed. “That’s cool. So what about you Sean? You don’t go to Woodland, do you?”

I wanted to bang my head against the table in frustration, but I restrained myself.

“Nope,” Sean said. “I’m from New York.”

“I used to live in New York before I moved to New Jersey,” Ian explained. “Sean and I were friends starting in elementary school.”

“Oh,” said Colin. “Cool.”

“Colin, have you done anything interesting this summer so far?” I asked, wanting to avoid an awkward silence

“No,” he replied. “I wish you’d been home. All of my other friends are so busy this summer. I kept seeing Lils at the pool and I thought we all could’ve hung out if you were around.”

“Well, I’ll be back in six weeks or so,” I said dully. “Right before school starts. Hooray.”

Colin laughed. “That is annoying, but this is a cool opportunity. You should enjoy it while you can.”

“I guess I should,” I agreed. “But it can be hard to hang around some of these people all day, though, if you know what I mean.”

Sean could hear me. I knew he could. Take that, disgruntled misogynist.

Colin smiled. “Well, you give a little, you take a little. It’s like me and Angela. I had to go out with her for my friends to stop nagging me.”

“Wait,” I said, “you had to go out with her?”

He nodded. “Yeah. My friends are all going out with her friends. Finally, a couple of them dumped the girls, so I ended things with Angela. It was a relief.”

Aw, poor Colin. He’d been forced into dating Angela because of peer pressure. See, I knew he couldn’t have really liked her. He was really a nice person under the façade of ‘hot, popular guy dating the snobby, ringleader girl’. I was finally right about something.

The conversation shifted after this because Colin’s parents suddenly wanted to know all about my life, and my parents wanted to know all about his. Then our food came and I was distracted by eating. After dinner, I was ridiculously full. Before I knew it, it was time to go.

“We’ve got to run, since we’re expected for coffee at my parents’ house soon,” Colin’s dad said, “but it was nice seeing all of you.”

“See you back in Woodland, Sierra,” Colin said. “I’ll call you some time.”

“Okay!” I said excitedly.

Maybe if our parents hadn’t been there, he would have hugged me or something. But he didn’t. Colin and his parents disappeared out the door.

“What a nice family,” my mother commented. “And Colin is such a nice boy! Why didn’t you tell me you were friends with him, Sierra?”

“We aren’t that close,” I mumbled, embarrassed. “He was dating this really snobby girl, so I hardly talked to them.”

“His mother said he stopped dating her, though,” my mother said suggestively, raising her eyebrows.

I narrowed my eyes at her as she smiled evilly. This seemed to go over everyone else’s heads.

“Let’s have a bathroom break before heading back to the RV,” my dad announced. “I want to drive for a few hours tonight.”

I went to the bathroom and then left to wait outside for the others. To my horror, Sean was the only other person back. I bit my lip and went to stand by the wall near him. He turned to look at me. I glanced at him quickly but then pretended to ignore him.

“Sierra.”

“Hmm?” I asked, surprised that he was even talking to me.

“Are you friends with that guy?”

Taken aback, I asked, “Who? Colin?”

He nodded.

“Yes,” I said slowly. “Why?”

“He’s a jerk,” he replied. “You should avoid him.”

My mouth practically hit the floor. “Colin’s a jerk? And you’re the one telling me this? Are you serious?”

“Dead serious,” said Sean.

“Sean, after how you’ve treated me for the past couple of weeks, why should I listen to anything you say?” I cried. “You don’t even know Colin. And even if you did know him, he treats me better than you do. So why should I believe you? And why would you even say that?”

Sean shrugged. “I don’t have to explain myself. But any guy that goes out with a girl just because his friends tell him to and then dumps her at the drop of a hat is bad news. If you go out with him, you will get severely burned.”

“Even if that is true, which it most certainly is not, why should you care if I get burned?” I exclaimed. “You would probably enjoy watching that, actually.”

Sean rolled his eyes. “Look, it’s not because I changed my mind about you or anything. I still find you extremely irritating. But you’re Ian’s friend. And Ian really likes you. To make the trip easier for all of us, it would be nice if Ian were not completely devastated.”

“Why would Ian be completely devastated if I was interested in Colin?” I asked.

Sean sighed with exasperation. “Are you really that stupid? You haven’t even picked up on it? God, Sierra, I might even be giving you more credit than you deserve. Ian likes you. Open your eyes for a minute”

My eyes widened. I opened my mouth to make some sort of shocked exclamation, but then the door of the men’s bathroom flew open and everyone else emerged, forcing me to become silent. Sean strode away, with Ian running after him. My mother came out and everyone began to head for the door. Speechless, I trailed after everyone else.

It occurred to me at that moment that even though Colin had said he would call me, he didn’t even know my phone number.


To: LilsRulz530

From: Sierra614

Subject: Summer of Love?

That’s awesome about Robin, Lils. I am really happy for you. I am crossing my fingers that everything will work out for you two. Strangely enough, I also had a chance encounter today with my object of affection, Colin. Weird, right? He wasn’t home because he was here in Cincinnati, visiting family. Talk about a coincidence. We ate dinner with his family and I found out he broke up with Angela. He was really nice and seemed like he really wanted to talk to me. But then, after he left, things got weird.

Here’s the breakdown.

Sean – Still hates me, but is showing more concern for Ian and friends of Ian than he initially did. He warned me Colin was bad news, which at first I didn’t believe, but when I thought about it... I realized he had some points. Also, I found out the truth about Melissa. She’s this weird ex-girlfriend of Sean’s who he really liked but who brutally dumped him right after his parents’ divorce. Apparently, I creepily remind him of her which is why he hates me. Kinda stupid, right?

Colin – Might like me, but for the wrong reasons. It turns out that he only went out with Angela because his friends made him. Which means… he is really easily manipulated. Also, it seems like he really hated Angela. What if he just wants me to go out with him to tick her off? I can’t even tell if he legitly likes me or if he’s using me. The more I think about all of our past conversations, the more fake they seem to me.

And now, here’s the NEWSFLASH.

Ian – Does like me. As more than a friend. Which Sean informed me as I stared at him un-believingly. But the problem is, we are so wrong for each other and I have no feelings for Ian besides liking him as a friend. So WHAT SHOULD I DO? Try things out with Ian, just because I desperately need to have boy experience before high school ends and Ian is super-nice, or try to avoid him because it would be so awkward and I would have to listen to his educational rants all day? Also, Ian has never had a girlfriend, as far as I know. Does he even know how to treat one? Part of me wants this to be the summer of love for both of us, but the other part is telling me I shouldn’t take the leap without looking first.

I guess the bottom line is, HEEEEEEELLLLLLP!!

Sierra



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