What I Want

You yell at me and tell me to do something

I tell you I don’t want to, and to leave me alone

You become enraged and yell, “Why”

I shrug and give you a made up excuse

You think that is why I really don’t do something

I can see the anger glowing in your eyes that are now tainted red

Funny, sometimes my eyes will turn red after these fights but for different reasons

I almost want to laugh at you, and tell you what a clueless person you are

Do you really want to know my reason?

No, it’s not because I’m lazy

I just don’t care

I don’t care because I’m not interested in it

Your still yelling at me saying

“I swear when you’re older you’ll ask me why I didn’t let you do things when you were younger, and I be yelling at you again because it was always you who stopped yourself!”

You’re wrong

You don’t let me do things, not unless it’s something you want or wanted to do

Shut up, I don’t want to listen to you

You don’t care because if you did you wouldn’t be saying these things now

If you truly care you’ll shut up and let me do what I want

You know what, I don’t see why I’m saying this because I know you’re not listening

But I want to remind you when I’m older I won’t ask you why

Why you ask

Simple because maybe you’ll forget all the harsh and heart-breaking words but let me tell you this

I know for a fact that I never will forget and I know I will never heal from these scars

Because physical pain will fade in a matter of days, but emotional pain will stay forever