Where do I go from here?
What do I do now?
Everything is gone but that single fear
The one which keeps me from leaving this town

I wait for what doesn’t want me
I smile and dream of that special day
I cry every night for he who hates me
Yet, stand the next morning to face the day

A day that will leave me in pain
One where I’ll discover my meaning
Where I’ll lose any and everything
Just to uncover my true being

They’ll find me lost in myself
Rocking in that corner, knees curled to my chest
They’ll hear me whispering to myself
“Why can’t I get out of this mess?”

And I’ll stand before they can help
Glare and shout, “In the end, you want to understand?!
You now want to believe, to help?
This is bullshit, you can never understand.”

So I turn and leave them
Walking calmly, never to look back
I just need to start over, leave this place and him
And maybe all the bad stuff will go away, for a fact