i need peace;
so desperately that I search it from sounds.
the louder the better.

i beg for privacy;
so desperately that I make myself public.
read read read my words, strangers!

i crave for understanding;
so desperately that I push everyone out.
not wanting to be hurt anymore.

i implore for reasons;
so desperately that I weave lies.
how much sweeter they are…

i yearn for bliss;
so desperately that I create pain in me.
chaos is all I see.