I Keep Forgetting

It’s a lie

That I can’t stop telling myself, because

Who the hell do you think you are?

You make assumptions

And I can’t refute them anywhere

Except in my mind because

Your lips move faster

Your brain works quicker

Your voice sounds louder

And I drown underneath a barrage

Of cleverness without conviction.

I have that passion you lack

But I don’t have the execution,

And to you that means

That I’ve lost

In a game that I was never playing.

The argument comes fast

It gets repetitive

And when my mouth doesn’t open

You laugh and turn away

Like it’s over.

Why do I keep coming back for this?

I know your skewed beliefs

But the argument is still pointless

And so utterly devoid of real meaning

Of a basis in reality

That I want to laugh

My mouth works like a fish

Because I’m not sure

If you could possibly be that dumb,

And you see it as evidence

Of my inferiority.

Your complex is your business

But I’m tired.