No Tears Flow

I die inside

I cry for you

But do not fear

No tears will flow

They stop with pain

I dig one hand into my wrist

No tears flow

The pain stops them

My heart beats steadily

Loudly

No blood reaches my fingers

They stop moving

All pain stops

The feeling leaves

I let go realising my mistake

I can't live without you

If you hurt, I hurt

If you die, I die

If you hide, I hide

If you cut

I restrict

My heart chokes me

Throbbing

Louder and louder

I can't be away from you

Without hurting

Yet no tears flow

The death inside me

One hand numb

The other angry

At me

At my mistake

I make you worse

I cause more pain

Perhaps I should go

You would be better off

Go back to the life I had

One of simple anger

Only anger

Nothing else

So simple

I should forget

The love I feel

Forget you

Maybe then you won't die

Maybe then I won't hurt

Anyone else

Apart from myself

Which path do I take

One of tears

One of love

One of anger

Love leads to tears

Tears don't flow

An old scar stops them

Old and dangerous

One better forgotten

Then remembered

You hurt

Yet no tears flow