Sick Panic

I feel sick panic
When I’m in the same room as you
I feel sick panic
In the bottom of my stomach

Why do I feel this for you?
I’ll feel pretty good
Once I get you out of my system

Once I get you out of my system
I’ll flee this place without a thought
You’re my only bind to misery
You’re my only bind to happiness

Once the wounds turn to scars
Once the scars heal over others
I’ll never feel this sick panic again

I feel sick panic
When I’m near you
I feel sick panic
In the dark recesses of my heart

I’ll move on I’m sure
Can’t you just hurry it up?
Maybe break my heart

I’ll smile at your mistakes
I’ll laugh at your stupidity
But can’t you just leave me alone?
I don’t think I can handle much more

I feel sick panic
Once I see you
I feel sick panic

My hands are shaking
My heart is breaking
No it’s just a dream
Can’t you just cut the line?

I can give you the dagger
You just need to drive it through my heart
Won’t you? Pretty please?

My sick panic isn’t going
Everybody’s laughing
Why can’t you just break me?
I feel sick panic

I shout and scream
I’m going to die because of you
All because of this sick panic

I feel sick panic
When you stare
I feel sick panic
When you smile

I fight and curse you
You never let go
Am I that important?

Why do I feel this sick panic?
Am I seeing things that aren’t there?
Ghosts of a past life
Replacing you and me

I feel sick panic
When you tease me
I feel sick panic

When will you give up?
I just can’t let myself
Succumb to you
This sick panic will never leave me

This sick panic
When will I be rid of
This sick panic….

A/N: song-ish….I’m not much for a song that repeats itself too much and yet here’s my own creation that repeats and repeats like a broken record….I’m such a weirdo….I actually came up with this idea during my math class….don’t ask why. It wasn’t even half finished when I wrote it….it evolved….do I even make sense? Probably not….