Inside of Me

I share my pain with no one;
because I doubt anyone cares.
I lock myself in my room;
and blame my life on me.

I hide my feelings from my friends;
scared that they'll reject me.
If they truly see who I am;
there would be nothing left but to run.

The light that shone inside me is gone;
snuffed out by my mistakes.
My dreams have taken flight;
I don't think I'll see them again.

Hope and love and trust;
these concepts are alien to me.
Despair, loneliness, and fear;
these are what I understand and feel.

I'm hiding from the world;
or maybe just from myself.
I don't know what to do at all;
but fear and rejection keep me from asking for help.