Lonely tears trail down my face,
I have lost all that ever mattered to me.
Stupidly, I gave it away with a forbidden kiss
And sealed my ill-begotten fate.
I am the only to blame for this;
The only one to be hurt beyond repair.
I am reforming, but it is futile.
I have lost all my chances at love-
Willingly and otherwise.
I am not what all say and see
I have grave hidden secrets-
Ones that should never reach virgin ears.
Behind these brown eyes lay things unimaginable;
Many of which I am for shamed.
But, alas, I strive to become what others dream of me-
Expectations to which no one can achieve.
I do my utmost to hold on to the little honour I have,
As well as the dignity that is nearly nonexistent.
Unfortunately, I write this in my solace
To which I have now no use for.
This dejectedly written letter is all that will be left;
For with no heart, how may I show emotions
I will be alive, do not doubt that,
However, this does not mean I will be living.