Should have

Could have

Just modest sentences

Devoid of meaning

I loved you

Cared for you

Longed for you

But my words betrayed me

The moment I needed them the most

…

Your smile was my hope

My light for a better day

Your touch was my addiction

My reason to smile during a storm

Arms around me

A protective embrace

A caring aura

Tender contacts, soft whispers

But I remained silent

Disloyal words failing me

Even as I cherished your gift

…

I loved you, you know?

The way you could make me laugh,

Make me feel wanted,

Safe by your side.

But my lips remained sealed

My feelings kept inside.

Oh treacherous words!

Yelling in my mind

Where no one can hear you

Thoughts never voiced

Wishes never spoken

…

I loved you so much

Each day a slow torture

Without your presence by my side,

Without feeling your hand in mine,

Or hearing your voice call my name.

But I never told you

Oh unfaithful words!

Hurting me inside

Where no one can reach you

Feelings never showed

Desires never revealed

…

I still love you, you know?

Even with her by your side

Taking that place I once held

Touches and caresses forgotten

And my laughter rings in the air

As my lips finally open

Despairing irony surpassing my dread

You know something my love?

I can speak at last

…

I loved you so much

But you never knew

A façade so perfect

One I wished to believe in

I loved you so much

Yet my courage always faded

Under uncertainty of your answer

Or maybe just for fear of rejection

…

Oh mournful words!

Why do you leave now my lips?

I am so late, too late

He is no longer here

Leaving only this cold behind

Oh anguished words

Why do you beg now for freedom?

I am so late, too late

He can no longer hear you

Far away, out of my reach

…

I am so sorry

For not speaking when I should

For harbouring that fear for so long

For letting you walk away from me

Away where I can’t follow

Sorry for myself I guess…

…

I was too late

Lost you before having you

Wished upon that gentle dream

Forgot about reality

Forgot you could leave

Choose other than myself

Forgot you couldn’t see

Past the mask upon my face

…

Listen to me, my love

My words finally liberated

The last ones you’ll ever hear

My last calling for you

I love you still, you know?

But I was too late, so late

This doubt still crushing my heart

Should have

Could have

Would I be by your side then

Had this fear never existed?

Should have

Could have

Would you love me like this

Had this terror not defeated me?

…

I was too late

Always too late

I didn’t speak

Didn’t stop you

Didn’t call your name

I just hid

From you and myself

I was too late

And you didn’t look behind

You continued your path

A way mine doesn’t cross

I am so sorry my love

I am always too late…

…

…

Never hide your feelings inside no matter the cost or the doubt you might feel. The alternative is much worse than you might imagine.

…

Please review