So Much Better

By Emilee Petersmark

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I’ve been counting down the days

And praying each and every night

That maybe this’ll be the moment

You’ll finally see.

Weeks and months don’t mean a thing;

I’ve grown numb to suffering

With just your picture to keep me warm.

I’ve gotten used to the emptiness

Of not seeing you by my side,

When I wake up in the morning

I’m doing alright.

It’s so much easier with time

To operate with you on my mind.

I’m always thinking, thinking of you.

You’re the sand in my hourglass,

Never letting me forget

My days are numbered

And I’m wasting time not living.

Years dissolve before my eyes,

Leaving me with all your lies:

‘This is for the best; forgive me.’

Tell me, is what you wanted,

Is everything okay

In your heart when you fall asleep

A million miles away?

Opportunity has toyed with us,

The error we’ve consumed when we thought

That this’d be better for us,

Better for us.

Do you remember years ago,

Back when everything was all brand new

And love was so much simpler,

Our lives were so small—

Or is it me that’s in the wrong?

Was it over all along?

I just can’t stop my heart from shuddering at your name.

Tell me, is what you wanted,

Is everything okay

In your heart when you fall asleep

A million miles away?

Opportunity has toyed with us,

The error we’ve consumed when we thought

That this’d be better for us,

Better for us.

It’s all the same—

The choice was made

Yet I still wait for the day

You’ll finally see

I’ll wait for you,

I’ll wait for you,

I’ll wait for you.

Tell me, is what you wanted,

Is everything okay

In your heart when you fall asleep

A million miles away?

Opportunity has toyed with us,

The error we’ve consumed when we thought

That this’d be better for us,

So much better for us.

I’ll wait for you.